If

Such a little word with so much power. It holds the balance of decisions. It is the deciding factor for children.
If you clean your room
If you aren't sick.
If you want to.
If they only call when they need something.
If things change.
What's funny is that every if seems to have a then.........
then you can go to the party.
then you can go to school.
then you can come over.
then they probably need space.
then I might come see you.
Sometimes I don't like the word very much as an adult. I certainly didn't like it as a child. Too many wonderings. Fearful that it wouldn't happen. Frightened that the "if" would not be met. Frightened that "if" I did do something then something bad would happen. It went both ways.
If has the power to change lives. Plans. Places. Decisions.
I am learning a lot about it at my rather ripened age. If someone doesn't take the time......then......get a clue. That's hard. Even at my age. But, necessary to learn and get through it. So, I just put on my big girl panties and take a deep breath and ..........wipe my tears......and go on.
And IF I do it often enough, eventually I will believe that I have gone on.
blessings,
rhonda