Do you ever have ah ha moments? Moments where you realize that things are incredibly, indescribably different than what you wished or hoped or believed. I have had many in my life. Moments where it feels like layers are suddenly peeled off of my eyes and I see much more than ever before. Maybe it's because we can only bear so much at certain times of life and our hearts protect us.
In the last years I have been fighting an ah ha moment. I push it back. Put on the sunglasses. Flip down the visor. Look stubbornly in the other direction. Nonetheless, the moment is there. It came. I knew something more than I knew before and no amount of denying it can shove it back to the place where I don't know it......it is now a part of my reality.
This can be for good. Or for bad. You never really know in life. You just know that life is worth living. That dreams are worth pursuing. That passion is a must or else you completely miss the point.
My ah ha moment demands some things of me. I don't know how they will turn out or what I think of it. But I do know that growing and learning are worth it. I know that God is faithful. I know He created me and carries me.
I know that I really like life. It's grand, as my friend, Jan, so aptly puts it. It is the thing that we all have in common. We are all given the gift. To use. Fully. Without fear. Headlong. And sometimes we will have ah ha moments. Moments where we realize that we had it wrong. Where we realize that we made a mistake. Where we comprehend that we don't measure up on someone's scale. We will have disappointing ah has and "wow, I cannot believe how amazing that is" ah has.
I guess we have to decide what to do with them. But I will say that avoiding them does not work out so well. Can turn into depression. Chonda Pierce cracks me up. But when she said that depression is anger turned on ourselves, it made a lot of sense.
You all have had ah ha moments. What are you doing with them? I hope growing and learning adjusting and trusting.
blessings,
rhonda
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